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Just rambling off what's in my mind.

I haven't posted in a while so I guess now is a good time.  Nothing too eventful is happening.  The semester is wrapping up and I am just struggling to get all of my work done.  There are just so many papers due soon.  This week I finished up three important papers, so that is a good feeling.  I am really glad that I finally completed my Action Research Project because that was a really long process.  It was a good experience though.

I just recently found out that I passed my MTELs and that's a giant relief.  I still kind of think that it was a mistake though.  When I left after taking my English MTEL, I walked out of the building with a girl who had also just finished her English test.  She asked me how I did and I straight out told her that I failed.  I guess I can own a lot of this to test anxiety though.  I just remember getting the test and reading the first few questions and just shaking my head and freaking out in my mind.  I kept telling myself to just stop now.  Just throw away the test and I'll try again in a few months.  For some reason, I just kept going.  Probably due to my curiosity about what these test questions look like.  Well, we all know the ending of this story.  I am just thanking the literary Gods for helping me through that test.  I will never have to take it again and I am one step closer to becoming an English teacher in MA.  The time can't come sooner.

I have been doing research for my student-teaching placement.  For my first semester of student teaching, I will be placed in an Elementary School (since I will be certified to teach drama to all grades.)  I chose a school for the learning disabled in the Upper West Side.  The facilities look amazing and I really liked the schools mission statement and focus on differentiated instruction.  I feel that learning disabled students may benefit even more than average students with drama because it does away with sitting down and shutting up (to be blunt.)  After that semester is over, I will be placed in a public HS somewhere in the city (hopefully close to my apartment) and then I will be done with NYU.

Nikki and I got a new puppy named Linus.  He is really really cute and playful but much more stubborn and timid than Mika was at 3 months.  He is Mika's biological brother.  They are really cute when they play together.  They play tugowar together and then take naps on eachother.  It's too cute.  I just hope that Linus can be trained as well as Mika is.  Mika is such a smart dog and she sets the bar high for little Linus.  He's really cute.  He has a very similar face to Mika but is tricolored (but the only brown he has is over his eyes like eyeshadow, haha.)

The more that I study dramatic activities in the HS and Elem School, the more I wish that I could be a drama specialist in an Elem School.  The arts are being savagely ripped from schools due to budget cuts though.  Some elem schools here in the city have an art teacher, a music teacher and a drama teacher.  The drama teacher has a very similar schedule as the art/music/gym teacher meaning, the drama teacher gets to see every student in the school at least once a week.  I'd love to do that, but having drama teachers in the elem school is getting more and more rare.  That saddens me.  Well, hopefully HS will have a space for me.

I am getting really really nervous that I wont be able to find a job in MA once I graduate.  I'd love to work at one of the Braintree public schools (BHS being my first choice, but I am also certified for middle schools as well.)  I also wouldn't mind working in Weymouth or Quincy but I don't want to have to drive 20-30 minutes every morning to get to work at the ass crack of dawn.  I'm just hoping I can get a job quickly so that Nikki and I can work towards getting a permanant residence somewhere.  We will probably have to rent an apartment for a year before we can get a house.  I just want everything to go incredibly smoothly after I graduate.  In my perfect world, I'd get my HS English/Drama job or Elem Drama specialist job and be set.  Too bad my world is very far from perfect.  I guess if all else fails, I could be a Teaching Artist until I can find a more dependable job.

This turned into a really nerdy post, sorry guys.  I guess this is what has been going on in my mind lately.  The real world is coming closer and closer every day and I just hope that I am ready.  NYU is doing everything that they can to prepare me but I'm pretty sure that I wont be 100% prepared.  Talking about life doesn't get you half as far as actually living it.

I guess that's it.  Sorry for being nerdy and whiny.  I just worry.  It's the Jewish mother within me.


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Apr. 15th, 2009 04:38 am (UTC)
It's good to see an update of Lily's mind! Preparing for the "real world" can be a little scary, especially when the reality it has to offer threatens to be unlike the reality we have formally pictured within our minds. I think that you are doing a great job in preparing yourself for your idealized place within it, however - you are ambitious and focused on your goals, both of which work wonders in working towards who you want to be! It's good to flesh out the logistics of your current state in life every once in a while. It's good to hear what you are thinking and how things are going, too ^^

LINUS IS SO CUTE! Nikki sent me pictures! :D
Apr. 15th, 2009 10:53 pm (UTC)
Lily, it sounds like you're doing a great job of preparing for the real world. It's strange thinking of ourselves as grownups, but you seem to have a great plan and are working your way towards the life you want.
I'm still at my dayjob in the mall, but it works in my life for right now. Dreaming big actor dreams.

I'm glad you passed your test and are that much closer!
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